Age: 18
Local: Ohio
Favorite Handle / Internet Name: Jaz
Real Name: Steve!!!!

UPDATED 5-31-05

UPDATED 10-02-05

Lets see, how would I even attempt to describe someone who tends to want to be forgotten? You seemlessly seem to lose what seemingly seemed to be the greatest point in ones life ever. The best few years, along with the worst has come and past. I have seen friends come and go, I've seen things many people only see in movies, I've done things most people wouldn't even consider, I am.

I can no longer say that "about me" page (this) is just a page.
It is in essense what I am and always will be. I tend to look differently at things now that I'm older. Things that were once a dream, are now reality. You are in highschool, you learn something (hardly anything in cleveland schools), that may (or may not) help you. Then you leave ill-prepared for life.

I've changed a lot.

I've lost so much...

What is one to do?

Never will I see the moments I've seen a minute ago, never again will I feel the way I felt when I wanted something or someone so badly, never again.

I've changed to the point where life is a realiztion. You realize it is somewhat pointless to live. Pointless.

To put meaning into life is what people try to do.

They try to substitute meaning for a pandemonial fortress of chaotic ignorance.

When you see things you tend to see more clearly as the days go on.

Being used,

and abused

Is the way of life.

Then you get to usin' and abusin', and you get what you deserve.

You get paid. You become you. You are.





Growing up is what I did...